Daily Dialogue: Flesh for Flesh

Two women wander through the chaos of the mind for 40 minutes and tell me what they say.

Natalia
Are you sure that you wanna do this?

Erin
It’s the only way we can be better people. I told you what my shrink said. You have to cut the worst parts out of you so only the good remains.

Natalia
How will we know which parts are the bad ones?

Erin
The blade will tell us because we’ll tell it our secrets. It’ll tell us where on our bodies the horrible things lie, then we cut them out.

Natalia
What will we do with the pieces? Won’t they try to get back to their home, to poison us again?

Erin
I didn’t think of that. Maybe we can put them in a pot.

Natalia
No, they can push off the lid… What about those plastic bowls with the top that locks?

Erin
That could work. Do you have a big one?

Natalia
No, but I have a few small ones.

Erin
Good. I want all the bad out of me.

Natalia
Me too.

Erin
And I’d rather have too many places to put the pieces than too few.

Natalia
Because they’ll try to poison us again. Do we need to do anything to the blade?

Erin
No, it’s prepared. It will hurt a lot, but that’s because the bad doesn’t wanna be let go. We’ll bleed, but the wounds will heal once we’ve cut out enough.

Natalia
How do you know all this?

Erin
The blade told me. Touch it, you might hear it.

Natalia
I don’t hear anything…

Erin
It must have chosen me to hear it.

Natalia
I hate shyness.

Erin
Shut up! Do you want to hurt its feelings?

Natalia
Oh, I’m sorry! I’m sorry!

Erin
Go get the bowls. I’ll try to cheer it up while you’re gone.

Natalia
Yeah… I’m… I’m…

Erin
Just go. She didn’t mean it. She’s just afraid. Worried. Like I was. Such a great opportunity doesn’t come along everyday, you know? Please don’t hate her. Her life has been just as terrible as mine. We’re the same age and we’ve known each other since we were four. We’ve seen the best and worst of each other… but there’s always been more of the latter than the former. Life is cruel. The world is cruel. Then I found you on the street. Just lying there as people passed you by not knowing of your power. The bastards. If only they knew what you were. If only they knew how kind. But then, I wouldn’t have found you. We’re fated, aren’t we? You could have spoken to anyone, but you chose me. Chose to help me and Natalia. I think I love you.

Natalia
I think I love you, too. Is it still angry? I came back quicker than I thought, but I didn’t wanna interrupt you.

Erin
Thank you. No, it’s not still angry. It loves me, and it loves you.

Natalia
Really? I’m loved? I’ve never had love before.

Erin
I know. It’s beautiful, isn’t it?

Natalia
I don’t wanna demean the feeling by making it tangible with words. I just wanna… let it fill me. Swim through me and tickle me with its warmth.

Erin
Let it be tainted by your secrets?

Natalia
You’re right. I can’t let love be ruined by my terribleness.

Erin
Nor can I. I’ll go first.

Natalia
Are you sure?

Erin
It told me so. Ok… ok. I was such a bad girl when I was seven that, even though I didn’t know I did, I tempted my nanny to touch me at night.

Natalia
Touch you where?

Erin
She started with my hands. Always with my hands. Then she made me touch her breasts with them. I didn’t have breasts, so she only had my chest to touch.

Natalia
You’re such a horrible person.

Erin
I know… I know. Then she moved her hands down between me and touched everything down there.

Natalia
How long did you tempt her unknowingly?

Erin
Until I was fifteen. She got fired because the dog tempted her, too, and my parents caught her.

Natalia
Poor nanny.

Erin
Yeah.

Natalia
Where does the blade tell you to cut?

Erin
…my thigh. She always liked my thighs. She was the first person to buy me stockings.

Natalia
To hide your thighs from her?

Erin
It didn’t work, though.

Natalia
How much will you have to cut off?

Erin
The blade doesn’t want my entire thigh.

Natalia
It’s so considerate.

Erin
Just enough to fill the smallest bowl.

Natalia
Here.

Erin
Thanks. Hold my hand?

Natalia
Of course. You should bite down on this rag, though.

Erin
I should.

Natalia
Is it ok if I tell a secret while you purge?

Erin
Yeah, it’s always listening.

Natalia
I stole a lot when I was a teenager. I needed things to distract me from home stuff, and it was fun. It was SO fun. One time, I stole a whole wallet. It was on a counter at a pizza place. The guy it belonged to was buying something for his date. He chased me for blocks and blocks. Then he tripped on his wallet. I think I dropped it when I turned a corner. He fell on one of those iron fences. With the spears on top. Right through his neck. I watched him die. It took a few minutes.

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3 Responses to “Daily Dialogue: Flesh for Flesh”

  1. I like this piece of writing. Its very dark and creepy and not what I would usually read.

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