Daily Dialogue: Mirror-Damage

Two imaginary women speak through my keyboard 40 minutes a day and surprise me with what they have to say.

Alice
Where were you?

Dora
Out.

Alice
The same “out” you’ve been at for the last few months?

Dora
What’re you talking about? Why are you smelling me?

Alice
I didn’t think you started smoking.

Dora
I haven’t.

Alice
Oh? Then why do you smell like an ashtray?

Dora
Other people can smoke.

Alice
And where were these other people?

Dora
Can we talk about something else? I just got home and I wanna relax.

Alice
But I’m your wife. We can talk about everything, even while you relax. So where were you?

Dora
I was out, ok? Just… out.

Alice
Of the closet? Yeah. Of your mind if you think I’m gonna leave this alone? Oh, hell yeah.

Dora
What?

Alice
Three months. For three months, you’ve been spending more time “out” than in. You don’t tell me where you go. You’re always tired when you got back. You don’t touch me anymore.

Dora
Is that it? You wanna have sex?

Alice
No. Besides, you do enough fucking for the both of us.

Dora
What?

Alice
I followed you around last week.

Dora
You spied on me?

Alice
I followed you. And I saw the places that you went to. And the women who go in them.

Dora
You spied on me?

Alice
Is that all you have to say? Fine, I admit it. I spied. I fucking spied on my cheating wife.

Dora
Cheating?! Why the fuck do you think I’m cheating?

Alice
Cigarettes aren’t the only thing I smell on you. These must be some high-class broads, because what’s left of their perfume on you isn’t cheap.

Dora
You spy and you lie…

Alice
Lie? I’m the liar? I saw them, Dora. I went inside the building and saw what goes on. Have our years together made me so useless that you have to go to a sex den do get your kicks?

Dora
No, but–

Alice
Then it’s you! Oh, so it must be that you’re the sleeze who needs a bunch of women to make them happy. I’ve been through this already, Dora. I went through my ex-wife cheating on me and told myself that I’d never stick around if it happened again.

Dora
I work there, ok?

Alice
That’s supposed to make me feel better? That you cheat and get paid for it?

Dora
I’m not fucking cheating on you!

Alice
You are fucking and you are cheating, so fuck you!

Dora
Shut up and let me explain!

Alice
What’s there to explain? You can’t touch me because you’re too used-up from all those bitches at the club? That I’m not good enough for you? That I’m old?

Dora
I don’t have sex with anyone at that place. I sit in a glass booth while women watch me touch myself.

Alice
What kind of sick fuck are you to need to do that?

Dora
The kind of sick fuck who couldn’t find a better second job or else we’d lose the house.

Alice
…what?

Dora
You don’t read the news, so you wouldn’t know. Mortgage and utilities across the country went up three months ago. My job was already cutting shifts. I couldn’t ask my boss for more hours. You can’t work. So I searched for another job. The only one that offered enough money and could work around my job was at the sex den. I told them that I didn’t wanna have any kind of sex with anyone, so they put me in a booth. The other girls smoke, and they have to wear perfume because they have full-contact positions.

Alice
I… I’m sorry.

Dora
Not nearly as sorry as I am for you. Why didn’t you ask me?

Alice
I did.

Dora
As a woman who wanted to find a cheater. Not as my wife.

Alice
I’m sorry. But my ex–

Dora
I’m not her, am I?

Alice
No.

Dora
Because you treat me like I am. I have NEVER given you a reason to think I’d cheat on you. If you were suspicious, you should’ve asked me instead of feeding that shadow in your mind and doing things like spying on me.

Alice
I know, I fucked up. I’m so sorry, Dora.

Dora
We’re through.

Alice
What?

Dora
We. Are. Through. If you thought that I’m cheating once, you’ll think it again, and I’m not living that life. Do you have any idea what it’s like to work in a place like that and not wanna be there? Do you know how some of the girls and I get treated by customers? How low those women try to make us feel even though they have no problem whatsoever with using us? To put up with that for months to make sure that we’re not living under a fucking bridge or a hostel? And to know I’m going through all that for a woman who thinks I’m cheating on her, who doesn’t have enough respect for me to simply ask what I’ve been up to? Fuck that, and fuck you. I’m gone.

Alice
No! Please don’t go!

Dora
You only get one chance with me.

Alice
We’ve been together for five years!

Dora
Exactly. Five years of nothing but affection and devotion from me, and you still thought that I had it in me to be unfaithful.

Alice
I need you!

Dora
If I was cheating, what were you gonna do? Were you gonna stay with me? Get a divorce? Take me for half my shit? You don’t need me, you need security. And it’s stepping out the door.

Alice
Please don’t leave me…

Dora
I’ll be back tomorrow with some people from work to get some of my things. The house is in just my name, so I’m giving you a month to find somewhere else to go. Then I’m kicking you out.

Alice
I don’t have–

Dora
Don’t have anywhere to go? You have family somewhere. Find them, because you’re gone in one month.

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